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[23 Jul 2005|10:25pm] |
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The Honorary Title - Everything I Once Had |
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i've been thinking.
i need a new start.
no more using this livejournal. it has too many used up pages.
i need a clean slate to start on.
the past is the past.
im working on the present now.
add it.
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| the only way out is through. |
[10 Jul 2005|06:41pm] |
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Death Cab for Cutie - Pictures in an Exhibition |
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i keep getting surges of creativity that will flash on and off too much, but along with them, is the side of it that isn't enjoyable. I no longer speak in simple sentences it seems, but ones that go around and around without sense.
i am haunted by old memories of everything that effected me to get me up to this point. I thought i closed those doors a long time ago, but somehow they remain to open and close by themselves. All i want right now is to finally lock those door and throw the key away. The past is the past, why dwell on something that only eats me away. I'm driving myself to an unplesant mental state again even though i have what i've always wanted in my life now. I can't go back to old habits.
whatever. i'll overcome.
( pictures may speak louder than me. )
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| one month. |
[26 Jun 2005|12:53am] |
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Murder by Death - Masters in Reverse Psychology |
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one month of bliss with charlie.
i love it.
today was amazing.
while the proccess of taking pictures in my backyard charlie and i got to hear the encounter of my two azn neighbors are their wild sex excapades in the pool.
one even screamed ten dolla.
it was amazing.
i love charlie geiger.
( pictures )
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| omghaomgahodjsfkasfjdksa DRAMA FUCKS. |
[31 May 2005|04:47pm] |
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Lola Ray - Automatic Girl |
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haha it's funny how dramatic this fucking town is when you sit down and realize how overdramatic people are. im not saying im innocent of it .. but i got over it. i got over hoping for a peaceful night without getting treated like dirt because of some rumor that didn't need to be spread effected everybodys opinions.
Wow.
TALKING SHIT HAPPENS.
get the fuck over it.. the only reason a person has the right to be mad is if it was something that wasn't supposed to be said that got out or it's something untrue.
For the drama i see... it's all becase people get mad because they don't get along. boo hoo. I've gone through a stage where everybody in vista and oceanside disliked me. What was I supposed to do fight off everybody that talked shit on me...? It's not the way to handle it.
People think they're oh so mature lately becasue they have people to drive them around town and they take tons of pics and meet new scene boys/girl everyday.. when in the reality they're are fucking immature.
Everybody rallies up people to be on either side.
and then they all beat each other black and blue with "sophisticated" words.
good luck with that.
you know there is always a down fall to everything. im just watching on the sidelines as it falls more and more everyday.
go ahead comment your faces off at the mere fact i say the truth.
odds are im talking about YOU
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| ATTENTION |
[09 Apr 2005|11:59am] |
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The Black Dahlia Murder - Paint It Black |
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note to everybody..
if you have something to say about me.. about how much of a bad person i am or how annoying i am..
go ahead
complain all you want.
I am a horrible person.. is that what you want to hear because you know what, i may care a little but its giving me inspiartion to be a better person but im not going to overeact on it because it doesn't matter.
if i bother you so much block me from lj block me from your life because everybody takes egos so seriously
thanks.
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| oh my gosh. |
[27 Mar 2005|04:13pm] |
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The Blood Brothers - Love Rhymes With Hideous Car Wreck |
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oh my god.
i just got sent pictures from my cousins car crash.
im fucking bawling now he's so brave to have survive this.
( love really does rhyme with hideous car wreck. )
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[21 Feb 2005|03:23pm] |
Just to let YOU know.
You won this fight.
you probably have no idea what im talking about or whom, but the chances are it's you.
I'm so silent when im around you but theres so much going through my mind. so much that i needed to release, but i never did. but i just wanted to let you know you've out done yourself. you've proved yourself how great you are. how you can get what you want. I tried to disbelieve the rumors, but they are so true. You proved it to me the next day, when you ignored that the night before was there. That night my mind was going around in circles i tried to open my mouth but i couldn't. im regretting it so much right now. You have no realization what you've taken out of me. I bet up till' about now you had no idea its still taking over my thoughts.
just to let YOU know.
it did. it does. i will for a while.
i need no pity, but realize what you've done.
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| Friends Only. |
[13 Feb 2005|11:29am] |
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The Black Dahlia Murder - The Blackest Incarnation |
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